Entries for November, 2007

November 5th, 2007

the basics of summers and christmases

What I like about my wife is that she can stand my idiosyncracies and can come with me on a joyride to Batangas on a whim.






We were joined by her sibs and friends in our getaway in Nasugbu. I enjoyed standing as their photographer toying with my ever reliable Canon. Thanks to my wonderful subjects who gamely yielded to my crazy amateurish directions, I was able to create the following images:



After a long day of swimming, eating, and driving (with a regain of an 11.9 km/li Swift stat), it's home sweet home for me and my wife.




It pays to have an accessible beach resort to chill and a warm house to rest at. But nothing can match having a partner whom you can spin webs of moments with in resorts and rented spaces. At the end of the day, it's the priceless hugs we give each other which spell fun summers and meaningful Christmases for us. Beaches and fine houses only mean something because there is an us which make them meaningful.
 





I'm glad I have a my wife to create art and memories with. This year's is our first Christmas memory together. So far, it's been all good.

Posted by meetjopeblack at 02:08 PM | 8 bench press(es).

November 12th, 2007

addicted.

Lately, I couldn't control my appetite. I pleasured myself with food which weight watchers and bodybuilders should be keeping their hands off. I was easing up because I thought: I'm gaining weight while remaining thin which means I'm building muscle and not storing unwanted fat, hence...
 
For weeks which seemed like eternity, I avoided wine and lived a healthy life to lose inches off my heavy gut but more so because of a gastroesophagial reaction when too much acid forms in my stomach. Frightening, especially if you feel pain in your chest. It feels like meeting joe black is going to happen real soon. Not ready, I avoided anything that will create more acid and later, more heartburns for me. No to orange juice, vinegar sauce, chili, tamarind, ascorbic acid, chestnuts, wine. In short, no to all the good stuff. Plus, I had to drink this sixty-nine peso capsule every morning for three to five weeks (do the math and see if I don't get a heart attack because of it) to relieve me of the burns.

I religiously followed the rule book on taking care of my body. Doctor's prescription. But it seems that the more I thought of my hyper-acidity and heart burns, the more frequent and stronger it hit. So, I introduced myself to natural way.  I read that orange peel extracts are a cure to heart burns. I got the peels from marmalade jams. I continued drinking Yakult every night and warm milk (sometimes with Milo) to alternate it with. Gradually, I disregarded any pain I feel until I totally forgot about it. Now, I no longer have those attacks.

Last Thursday, I re-explored the forbidden. I opened a bottle of wine, shared a goblet with Cathy, and finished it all up by myself. Heaven. Sarap. I found the elixir of life in the suave fullness of my Merlot and Cabernet Sauvignon. Then last night, I basked in the double sweetness of bottled macapuno and leche flan.  This morning, I downed two bite size pieces of snickers. And now, I've cracked and popped half of my favorite Christmas treat, chestnuts. To hell with health and fitness, to hell with heartburns and acids, to hell with gyms and bodybuilding. I'm eating and drinking, let heartburns and acids take care of their selves. And I still have a box of Chubby Corn to feast on.

But I don't think I can stand abandoning all my years of bodybuilding. For my penance, I'm cleaning the pool today and start doing laps again tomorrow morning. It's not for vanity alone that I am doing this. It's also for...
I guess I'm down with vanity--my one and only addiction. I'll go clean the pool now, the sun is setting.

Posted by meetjopeblack at 05:18 PM | mix me my whey

November 14th, 2007

regardless of gender, religion, social status, or color of skin

When my JTA students returned from their semester of study abroad, they brought back with them first-hand experiences of discrimination in the countries they went to--France, Singapore, and China to name a few. In their eyes you can literally see the vivid memories of racism which in this age of synergy and globalization should already be passé. Yet apparently, it's still alive in the merchants who shooed my students away like flies yelling that they don't have money for purchase or in the club bouncer who wouldn't let filipinos in the bar because filipinos are infamous for taking advantage of open bars so they can drink for free or in the salesperson at the perfumerie who ignored my student's queries because she seem not to have money to buy the perfume she was looking for.
 
When we went to Singapore, I saw with my own eyes how brutal people can be. At the immigration counter, single women in plain clothes are being asked to show their pocket money to the officer for god knows what. I don't understand why money and looks can be your gate pass to a country. But I guess that's not very different from security guards in exclusive villages allowing entry to an SUV owner and asking for an identification card from a driver of a 1980 sedan. And I think that that's much worse because a fellow Filipino is sizing one up according to car make and model and mug-stereotypes. You can notice that in malls. Others are thoroughly frisked and inspected, while others get through with a smile or a wink or a pucker of the lips.
 
I've been an anti-marginalization advocate since being introduced to the philosopher Rorty. And like him, I believe that discrimination is the most cruel thing we do to our fellow human being. And worse than the most cruel thing is when your equal, your kin, your fellow national discriminates against you. A filipino merchant in Singapore narrated to us like we were old chums, how a filipino customer (who came minutes before us) asked her why she was outside selling when helpers like her should be staying in their master's house. She said she was even asked how she got to Singapore in the first place, mocked what bitter luck could've brought her there, and so on and so forth. She was pissed that it's her fellow filipino who looks down on her. It's the class struggle at work, the stratification of people as belonging to high, mid, and low classes, the von trapp nouveau rich scoffing at the class they recently got to emancipate themselves from.
 
Enough of philosophy and my advocacy. Better to have a quick bite first and chill. To Aldente we go.
Me: (standing near the glass door, looking at the display menu.) Table for two please.
 
Waitress: (holding the door shut tight.) (short pause) Dito na lang po sa labas.
 
Me: Pwede ba, sa loob?
 
Waitress: Hindi na po pwede. Puno na po sa loob.
 
Me: (perplexed, seeing that there are only two tables occupied inside and at least six tables are set empty.) Eh ano yang mga table na 'yan sa loob?
 
Waitress: (still hanging on to the door.) Reserved na po 'yan eh.
 
Me: Ganon?! (looking sternly at the waitress with a raised brow, then, walks away.)
I have essays of arguments and counter-arguments in my head right now about the incident. If it indeed those seats were reserved, why didn't the waitress not ask for our names and check on their reserve list (if there indeed is one) if we were listed per SOP? Do they personally know who their guests are each night they are in operation? I was tempted to slap her with bundles of pesos but that would be playing their game and I'd be betraying my self for an Aldente pasta which I don't even know if it's worth my time and money. What's clear to me is that what happened last night was a bad case of discrimination and I hate that they did it to me and my wife twice now. I vowed not to go to that place again the first time it happened and gave it a chance last night after a long boycott. But they blew it still and curse them I will--not for the hurt ego, or the suspended satisfaction of hunger. It's discrimination I hate being done to me or to anyone. I cannot be silent about such ill-will. No one should do any form of marginalization to anyone.

Posted by meetjopeblack at 09:20 AM | 1 bench press(es).

November 29th, 2007

swimmer's ear

I had the time of my life searching and downloading music last night while waiting for my wife. The night before was their fashion show gala and more than the parade of clothes was a barrage of different beats corresponding to their one-two-three thump-thump-thumps. The music and the setting's vibe must've gotten into me that visions of that event linger in my mind. The replay of memory brought me to the following artists: The Go! Team, Sondre Lerche, Of Montreal, Peter Bjorn, Death from Above 1979, Bodyrockers, Hard-fi (this one's an old find), Plastic Bertrand, and The Rakes. Previously, I got acquainted with Telepopmusik, Greg Cipes, and Pink Martini. All never heard before but now are staples in my i-pod.

 Speaking of which, I recently discovered a new product for sharing i-pod files. Although long overdue, miShare facilitates the transfer of music or photo files from i-pod to i-pod. The beauty of this device is that you can choose which files you want to copy in a click of a button. And, it's only $99 cheap. Anyone thinking of getting me something for Christmas?

Music, or in more general terms "sound," adds flavor to a rather plain life. I caught a Rene Requiestas movie in Cinema One earlier and noticed how through music, his lines are contextualized and given a kick (or a punch). Weeks ago, while having lunch at the department, we were discussing what would be least better without: the sense of sight or the sense of hearing. Of course, none of us would want the other without and nobody knows what would it feel like losing one of the two senses. We ended the discussion of the pros and cons of each sense with a thought from Hellen Keller quoted by a colleague. According to this faculty, Keller says that the sense of sight is a loss of vision while the sense of hearing is a loss in communication and consequently interactions, relations.

 The movie "It's All Gone Pete Tong," a DVD recommended to me by a student years ago which I finally got a hold of in my trip to Singapore, depicts the vital importance of hearing. It is through our ears do we create order and rhythm in the smorgasbord of sounds. After watching the movie, I can only have extra wonder and care for my ears. A noiseless, soundless picture, image, or event is something I would not want to be in. Sound and music provides depth to a flat punning of time and vision. If you don't get what I mean, try wearing an I-pod and shuffle your playlist to anything. Walk the streets of Manila, look around, and there you will see a visual and auditory mixing of story, color, and life. Try it. It's fun.

Why am I saying all these? Music has been my partner at home when I'm alone or in the car while driving to school. But these days I'm getting a poking ache in my left ear and it scares the shit out of me. Must be due to a bad stroke in breathing during swimming or maybe because I haven't cleaned the pool well enough. I'm going to the doctor this afternoon to have my ear checked. This one's really bad it's giving me a headache and online sources say, I should immediately rush to the doctor.

I love swimming because while swimming everything shuts down and I'm by myself listening to nothing but the strokes and splash of water--the loveliest of music aside from a baby's chuckle, my wife's endearing words of affection, and silence. I am so enamored by the sound that I literally engulfed it in. Sound and music, like persons, are not something to own and possess. In so doing, melody becomes discordant notes and beauty and harmony transforms to wretchedness and disorder.

The past days and weeks have been a battle with a question on identity. Like Narcissus who drowned while adoring his image on the water, questions on love for the self and self-love resurfaces. I thought I'm over this but I'm again drowning. Figuring the answer to the question is hard enough; the question itself is even harder. If only finding answers were as easy as google-ing and downloading and the weight of problems can be diminished by file-sharing...

Posted by meetjopeblack at 10:57 AM | mix me my whey