HELP
Posted by summer_summer at 01:16 PM | mix me my whey
December 1st, 2008
its peircing
he doesnt understand me. How come he was able to let me feel like im special for the last 3 years. Well, yeah of course his world does not revolve around me. that would be too selfish. is it too much, i just needed him to be there for me but of course i know things wont go on my own will. it hurts knowing that he tried his best but it's not enough for me. i was there for him. i understand what he had gone through. i understand that he can't always talk to me. but i needed more than that. i deserve more. i cant go on with this relationship coz it'll just hurt me and him. it's clear that he didnt understand me. and from this day on i should try hard not to attach myself to him. yeah that's not easy, we always love to inflict pain in us. but every corner of the situation offers pain. i taught him to hate me. i showed him how desperate i am. he still is insensitive to me. i am not even sure if i still know him. he was not the person i knew years back. it hurts beyond words and the only situation i could think of is to end this. i need to end this coz i also need to take care of my own self. goodbye to everything i thought would be for us. 
Posted by summer_summer at 01:02 PM | mix me my whey
November 30th, 2008
Mono - Life in Mono
The stranger sang a theme
From someone else’s dream
The leaves began to fall
And no one spoke at all
But I can’t seem to recall
When you came along
Ingenue
Ingenue
I just don’t know what to do
The tree-lined avenue
Begins to fade from view
Drowning past regrets
In tea and cigarettes
But I can’t seem to forget
When you came along
Ingenue
Posted by meteorshower at 12:27 PM | mix me my whey
Ikaw.
Oo ikaw.
Mabuti nalang pagnaghihintay ako sayo
dumadating ka.
Salamat. 
Napapasaya mo araw ko.
Posted by meteorshower at 01:11 AM | mix me my whey
November 29th, 2008
was i happy?
yes i was! no. yes I am. I like how God paved the day for me today.
My teacher not showing up in our 8:30 class kicked off the day. I wasnt annoyed. Though what she did was logically annoying. I mean, i cut off my sleep, had to wake up early for school just to find out that the teacher can't make it. Im always caught in that situation, and it makes academic life not so cool. but, i didnt feel bad about it, coz in the first place i cant turn back the time and getting angry bout it would not change anything. so yeah, i handled myself well today. calm and just calm.
Educ class was below boring. and, the teacher sucks. i dont like her. she preferred to see my nails un-painted. wtf. i love my nails and wut she did to me is quite offensive. lol. she cant do that to my nails. they're precious to me. huhuhu
went to ayala with my gurlfriends. i bumped into my dad their and he was surprised to see me in this skimpy outfit when i left the house wearing my uniform. haha. but yeah, we went to eat lunch and im just happy to be wit them. i missed my tutorials though but it's worth it! i need a break from it. it's just so frustrating yet, i cant leave my student behind. i learned to love him and though im tired im always willing to take the chance. patience is a virtue!! lol
alot more of things happen today. i just cant contain it! haha. im just.. just happy. and that's all that matters!
Posted by summer_summer at 12:59 AM | mix me my whey
November 27th, 2008
Will Your Guy Cheat on You?
Cheat Predictor #1
If
your man seems to have sailed through life without ever hitting the
rough waters that rock the rest of us, beware. Privileged chaps tend to
suffer from a sense of entitlement (read: bratty-boy syndrome), so he
may believe that the rules don't apply to him. He's so used to getting
what he wants, why should he stop now?
"He
might cheat because he thinks he deserves to fulfill all of his needs,
no matter who he might hurt," says Shirley Glass, Ph.D., a
psychologist, infidelity expert and author of the forthcoming "Not Just
Friends: Protecting Your Relationship from Infidelity and Healing from
the Trauma of Betrayal." "He probably has little concept of how upset
you would be if you found out because he's too self-centered to think
about your feelings."
So how do you
know if your have-it-all hunk has other women on his wish list? Glass
suggests paying attention to how he copes when he's confronted with any
bad behavior on his part. Does he regret getting caught forwarding your
racy emails to his friends but feel no guilt for doing it in the first
place? Does he blame others when he screws up rather than take
responsibility himself? If he can't see how his actions affect others,
he's not likely to say, "Whoa, what about my girlfriend?" when
temptation strikes.
Dating Factor: His Career
Cheat Predictor #2
It's
great to date a guy with ambition -- and his deep pockets definitely
don't hurt when he brings you pricey baubles -- but the office
environment can open the door to private meetings of the carnal kind.
According to Glass, studies show that when men cheat, it's most often
with a work colleague. "Not only are people with similar interests side
by side on a daily basis, but the time they spend together is usually
when they're most energetic and look their best."
Unfortunately,
the bigger his wallet, the more likely your busy bee is to cozy up with
an office buddy. According to a study conducted by Jan Halper, Ph.D.,
author of "Quiet Desperation: The Truth About Successful Men," top-tier
guys have affairs more often than those on a lower rung, and not just
because big bucks can be babe magnets. "Evolution has wired men to
understand that the better they are at providing, the more appealing
they are to women," says Alon Gratch, Ph.D., a psychologist and author
of "If Men Could Talk." "Since testosterone is what drives men's quest
for power, if a guy has achieved status, he's more likely to act on his
desires." Remember that little Oval Office incident?
But
before you start staking out your guy's office parking lot, realize
that a career-oriented man might just be spending time working
diligently. If he sounds happy that you call during the day, invites
you to his office and takes you to company parties, you're most likely
his one and only partner. It's when he acts more secretive about his
work than a CIA agent that he's probably taking on after-hours
clients.
Dating Factor: His Schmooze MO
Cheat Predictor #3
Your
friends and family love him, and he always manages to keep you
entertained. How could you not adore him? But according to Glass,
sweet-talkers often have a deep need for approval and thrive on
attention. So what's wrong with dating a really friendly fella? Well,
sometimes a smooth operator's need for the spotlight can't be satisfied
by one woman's ego-stroking. And if he's suave with the ladies,
opportunities undoubtedly arise. "Charmers meet a lot of women and win
them over easily," says Aumiller. "So even if his intentions aren't
more than friendship, they might be willing to move beyond friendship,
and that's hard to resist."
To
determine if your charmer might become a two-timer, watch how he
interacts with you in social settings. A guy who wants to play with
other partners may brush you off when chatting with a new female friend
or get noticeably more uncomfortable with PDAs when other women are
around. "He should act like a boyfriend, giving you side glances when
he's talking with someone else, for example, or making sure he spends
at least part of the night partying with you," says Gratch. But it also
wouldn't hurt to remind him how attention-worthy you are. When he chats
up a chick in the corner, flirt with a few guys yourself. Once he sees
that you have your own game going on, he'll focus back on
you.
Dating Factor: His Friends
Cheat Predictor #4
The
nightclubs, the bachelor parties, the dudes-only deeds we're better off
not knowing the details of -- it's enough to make any woman worry just
a wee bit. Although boys-will-be-boys, bonding time helps a committed
man feel less, well, trapped, the appeals of bachelorhood may make him
long to be a free agent. A recent study of 37,000 men and women showed
that when guys see those around them splitting from their significant
others, it tends to encourage them to do the same.
You
want to believe that his buddies would have enough sense to stop your
guy from canoodling with some cute club-hopper, but they won't always
be on your side. According to Aumiller, "If a coupled-up guy's friends
are all looking to get lucky, they may not only tease him about being
tied down but also actually dare him to cheat. At the very least,
they'll cover for him."
Still, there's
no need to ban him from hanging out with the bachelors if he's able to
strike the right balance between his buddies and you. "He should
include you sometimes when he meets up with friends," says Glass.
Although your fella's frat pack might seem like the enemy, chumming it
up with the guys (fake fondness if you have to) can do wonders for your
relationship. Once you've earned their respect, they're much less
likely to push your partner into prowling.
Posted by aieo21 at 09:53 AM | mix me my whey
November 26th, 2008
Have you passed through this night?
This great evil - where's it come from?
How'd it steal into the world?
What seed, what root did it grow from?
Who's doing this?
Who's killing us, robbing us of life and light, mocking us with the sight of what we mighta known?
Does our ruin benefit the earth, aid the grass to grow and the sun to shine?
Is this darkness in you, too?
Have you passed through this night?
Posted by meteorshower at 03:27 PM | mix me my whey
November 23rd, 2008
letche
I would lie if i will say it to myself that i never had seen his efforts to make this work. I'd seen them. Feel? maybe yes. and maybe not. It was clear that he told me he's going online when i wake up. It turns out that im waiting for the whole morning for him to show up in my messenger. He didnt coz he fell asleep. Played his game, or read his book. Or if not, he would let me wait for hours..
I wanted to get angry at him. I wanted to tell him to treat me like before. But i chose not to because if i deserve to be treated nicely, i dont need to remind him of that.
Posted by summer_summer at 05:22 PM | 1 bench press(es).
